I’ve never been so excited to upload a video in my life–not record it, literally upload it.
I know my public facing work has been inconsistent the past few years, a huge component of that was technical. I had abysmal internet upload speeds, for example, these 30-minute weekly readings would take anywhere from 2-5 hours for me to upload every week. Some weeks it would take multiple days to get the video to upload at all.
There came a point I had to weigh the energetic cost of fighting technology.
The writing/creating part of my work is and has always been energy giving, but when it came time to distribute the work the tech issues turned into an abyss of energy drain. I decided the energetic price was too high.
I know a lot of business coaches would have urged me to post regardless of the tech frustrations. They would have said keeping my name visible and maintaining an online presence was the only way to grow my business. But, that’s not how I coach or live.
I coach through the lens of energy, and I follow my own advice. The 3 question energy audit confirmed the price was too high to battle technology.
I allowed myself to trust that time is always in my favor, time is always on my side. (A mantra I like to recite re: delays. You’re welcome to borrow it.) I decided when the world was supposed to have consistent access to my work, I would have access to internet that didn’t eat up all of my free-time and focus.
My time over these past few years was better spent on the behind-the-scenes work. Excavating my shadows for hidden power and the misbeliefs that had sabotaged me in the past. Grounding into the voice of who I am as a writer right now. Refining my coaching skills , witnessing transformations in my clients, and developing tools to help future clients.
I know the delay was given to me so I could privately experience a full transformation. The delay was given to me so I could fully own my power and know my authentic voice. The delay was given to me so I could find the courage to tell the stories and finally share my truth. The delay was given to me so I could know my worth and own the success that comes next.
Last Tuesday, the internet tech came out and I finally had access to a tool I need to do my job efficiently. It took me 18 minutes to upload to Patreon, allow the video to process, and upload to the cloud for my V.A. to do her thing.
February 17th is the Lunar New Year, and there’s an energy transition from shedding things that no-longer server you to forward action. Looks like my internet arrived at the perfect time to help me take my work to the next level.
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This week’s 7 cards is up. Yes, it can appear the world is a trash fire. But what if this is actually a catalyst moment for sustaining, conscious change that was impossible at any other point in time?